You really hurt me.

Families can be so complicated. Destroying the trust of a sibling is a stupid thing to do. My sister has lost at least a part of me forever. We might, in time, become reconciled; but as of right now she has lost my trust completely. I always was told the saying “blood is thicker than water”. I definitely lived by that and I feel like a fucking idiot for it. All the mistakes in the world couldn’t measure up to the day I thought I could trust her. I mean I was just so excited, I thought yay maybe this time it can be done right maybe I can actually have a true sibling now. My other sister, she didn’t want to be bothered with me and my brother just never had the time. You knew that and you knew how sensitive I was with that situation and you still fucked me over. It’s not even about what happened, I mean I’m upset about that, but I’m truly hurt because it came from you, and I trusted you. I trusted you more than anything and unfortunately I don’t blame you at all because that was my mistake. It just sucks that it will never be the same anymore. I’m honestly not sure if well ever talk again actually. Trust is a big thing to me, and if I can’t trust you I can’t fuck with you. I can’t be fake about it and act like everything’s all good because it’s not, you really really hurt me and I’m not going to make myself vulnerable to that again. You showed your true colors and where your loyalty lies and unfortunately that’s not with me. I’ll get through this though, eventually i’ll move on, but you best believe that relationship me and you built is over, well never get it back because I don’t want it. It’s just one of those things you just wish wasn’t true. But wishes only go but so far…